Disappointment

This isn't exactly a poem... Its just something I'm going through at the moment.

Sometimes in life things don't always go according to plan, and your left thinking why is this happening.
You spend your whole life hoping for the best, and hoping that you'll always come out on top.
But then your left disappointed.

I'm 19 years old and 7 months ago fell pregnant from a one night stand. I was heartbroken that it wasnwansith someone i was in love with.

The person i fell pregnant too was a good friend, so i thought that it would all at least be okay. Since the day i told my friend i had fallen pregnant to him i have not seen or heard from him. I have been left to go through this pregnancy all alone. Even though i have had the support from all my family and friends it is still hard knowing that my baby will grow up not having a father in he's life.

I am sad, upset and lonely all the time. With no where to go and no-one that knows what I'm going through to talk too.

I often wonder why i decided keeping this baby, but it also tares me up inside that i even thought about ending its life.

Im only 19 years old and am now facing the future with unknown possibilities. Not knowing how i will manage life with a child. Not knowing if i will be able to cope with such a huge responsibility in my life.

I am scared, more scared then i have ever been about anything in my entire life.

I wish that the outcome of all this was good. But once again I'm left disappointed.