Lowest Low

I reach highest high
just before I reach my lowest low
my deepest pain even to myself I won't show

I never wanted to be like this
the old "stronger" me I truly do miss
I see so much and the flashbacks won't stop
how can I stand so tall then suddenly drop?

I fear my lowest low is starting to get lower
the world goes so fast, but I feel as though I'm getting slower
I go out at night just to see the stars
but any more it seems like I'm viewing them from behind bars
I know the fault is my own, I built this cell
As a result I live my life in my own hell

But I pray that I can get away from myself someday
So that my lowest low can stay away