I gave God another chance
I told him I had hope
Now I'm alone
Caught in trance
I don't know myself
I'm just not here
I don't want to be here
I've become someone else
Losing too many can get to you
It can build up your stress
Put you to the test
And see how you'll do
I've lost the game
Lost everything, I lost it all
I'll never be the same
I'm forced to fall
Why, God? Why did you do this to me?
You are supposed to give us faith
I'm disappearing without a trace
Don't know where I'll be
Knowing what is coming hurts
Like a knife it cuts deep
Causing yourself to retreat
You're thrown in the dirt
I tried to have hope all this time
But I've been proved God isn't real
I'm not real
This face isn't mine
Who am I?
Where am I going?
There is no way of knowing
I won't even try
I hate this life
Hate everything and everyone around me
Hate what could possibly be
But I'm in strife
I am completely dead
I do not feel
I cannot feel
Emptiness in my head
This is not a dream
I knew you were leaving
I am here grieving
I'm a lie through the seams
I wish no more
I demand to be gone
Everything is wrong
I am sore
No cuts or burns, but pain
Beating myself is the only way
To get through the day
My eyes bloodshot and veined
Bruises hurt, forming one after another
I hide them under clothes
So no one knows
They think we know each other
Pain is enduring
I love the feel
It's so real
So addicting and luring
From every secret I've kept
Just to get me by
I might still cry
But I need one thing
