Never Loved You

If giving up is so easy, then why am I so hurt?
I try to make things better, turns out I make them worse
I never thought I'd do this, only cause I care alot
I'm going to tell you that we are done
And nothing can make me stop
I'm tired of the lies you told
I'm tired of fake smiles
I'm done for good this time
There's no more "break up's for a while"
If you knew exactly what you put me through
If you knew the pain I'm in
Then why are you repeatedly doing this to me?
I'm sick of giving in
Being with you my biggest regret
"I love you" your biggest lie
I'm not going to go all depressed and moody
Cause guess what: I don't want to die
I have things I want to do in life
There's people I want to see, places I want to go
I have in mind what I want to be
I may not be the smartest
But I'm so much smarter then you
Loving you used to be a priority
Another thing I don't have to do
I know it'll hurt me more
More and more each day
But my heart's healing from the cuts you created
That's really all I have to say
Just because it hurts, don't mean I'll take you back
I have to get my life together
I'm taking my heart back
I could fill this paper with words of hatred
Words of fear and death
But this is a new phase I'm in
So no poems like that yet
Erasing all my thoughts, forgetting you I'll start
I'll do what you say you do, block feelings from my heart
I'll pretend that this doesn't bother me and work on things that do
I'm giving up on you because I really never loved you!