I want to....

I want to walk
I want to runn
I want to cry

They tell me that i can do this
They tell me to stay strong

One by one
Im loosing hope
Im loosing alot of things

A week
A month
I was ok
Now its harder

Im sick and cant do this any longer
I dont know what will happing
I dont know were i will go

I use to be able to talk about how i felt
Now thats gone to
Once again i am forgoten

I cant understand whats going on
What r they telling me???
Im just so scared

New places
New people
I cant handle this rite now

I take all i can then i break down and cry
I feel stupid
Im ruining friendships

I guess im so scared
I dont like to talk
I feel so bad

Im shutting down
Im shutting the world out

I need time to find myself
Im scared