The person that i am

Knowing things is wonderful
and makes me feel secure
but it has become an infection
for which there is no cure

for now i feel i must know things
even if there really is no need
sometimes doing things i shouldn't
as long as i can succeed

i bombard friends with questions
to satisfy my own needs
i process they're information
to gain and follow leads

i look at they're faces
and the emotions that they show
i pay attention to their words
and how rough or smooth they flow

i record their every action
with precise detail in my head
i match however they act
with anything they might have said

i analyze every possibility
run schemes through out my mind
stupid, smart, strong, or weak
i go through every kind

not knowing something will consume me
every minute of every day
it will eat me up very slowly
and nothing can make it go away

yes, at times i hate being like this
but then i don't give a damn
for this is who i've always been
it is the person that i am