The hurt, the depression, the loss, the tears, the misery, the pain, the suicide thoughts and the fears
The things that leave you crying and the things that leave you with a frown
The things that leave you wondering the things that turn your world upside down
The things that make your stomach turn the things that make you sad
The things youve always wanted
And the things you wished you had
I never saw it coming I couldnt believe that it was true
That you wanted to be just friends because you were living a lie when you said I love you
It makes me feels so dark it makes me feel betrayed
It makes me want to fight for you but I dont know the right words to say
I now cry myself to sleep night after night
Praying that Ill be okay and that things will eventually be alright
That soon it will go back to the way it used to be
For you to be able to not notice the bad but only the good in me
One million tears wouldnt bring you back, I know because Ive cried
A million words wont bring you back I know because Ive tried
My friends say youre not worth it but I know you are
Because you are my only one, my only shining star
You think Ill eventually move on, but I promise you that I will not
Because my love for you is real and I have always loved you a lot
You think Ill find someone else, you think Ill find someone new
But I cannot honestly love someone near as much as I love you
You are my entire world, you are my entire life
And as I look in front of me, I find a razor sharp knife
I want to release myself from this misery, from all this pain
Because it hurts me to talk about you or to even hear your name
You wouldnt want me cutting myself but you wouldnt want me going through pain too
So right now Im just sitting here and thinking about what I should do
Well never be together, because this is the final end
Where you say Ill never be your lover but that well always be best friends
So if it makes you happy to hurt me go ahead and try
Watch me have a breakdown, watch me cry
At least youll be happy and Ill get to see a smile on your face
Because I know no matter how hard I try Ill never win this race
Youve always been too good for me, and I hope you know that too
And even if we end up going our separate ways remember no one will ever love you as much as I do!
