Further Away From Reach

I'm holding on to a star
One day I hope to know who you are.
Because when I thought I knew
You wouldn't act like you
So now I'm hurt and confused.

The rain doesn't calm me anymore
It reminds me that you aren't coming home.
And the pain is insufferable
And I just want you here
Everything is too opaque to be clear.

There's no hope here
Blood and lies, beneath my fears.
Why'd you leave like this?
Scars and bruises on my fists
Didn't you love me enough to take the risk?

I can hear you
Underneath my heart's stone walls.
I can feel you
Why won't you hang on?
Tell me what I did wrong.

Love like poison
It kills for no reason.
Misunderstood
If only I could
Bring you back to me, I would.

Unfreeze my soul
Locked here to make me old.
Like a lullaby
I aim to end your cries.
There's no moon out tonight.

Why can't I breathe?
Too many things are hurting me.
I want to open up
But I've already lost your touch.
This loneliness is too much.

I can see you
When I close my eyes.
I can smell you
With the sunrise.
What can I do to make it right?

Lust like happiness
Death with no witness.
I can't find my voice so I can speak
I hope you know this kills me
That you are further away from reach.