To look in my past
Is like cutting my arms with a knife
To open my eyes
I would have to realize my terrible life
To speak words of truth
You'd have to comprehend
To tell you what is wrong
I'd have to look at you and not pretend
To let my tears continue
I shall forever hold this pain
To let my thoughts be held in
I shall never be happy again
I let my words just stumble out
As if I had tripped and fallen
I let my heart be kept down
As if it had been stomped on and forever forgotten
I let this smile fool you, every single day
Because honestly and truly
I don't want this pain to go away
The tears that fall, they give me a sign
That shortly soon it will be my time
The pain inside, it grows everyday
But that just means that I can take my life away
The hurt I feel, I won't let it leave
Its my only chance left
To say, help me please
So when I'm gone, the world will carry on
There's no need to stop and stare
Where ever I am, where ever I go
I will watch you all from there
