Unknown Face of depression

Do you know why I cry at night?
Im holding back tears, but my pillow gets wetter

Do you feel the pain i do?
I cut deeper and deeper

Do you have the memories?
The ones of beatings and drunks

Do you know MY pain?
Or do you just see my smile, friends, and personality

Why do i try?
To let you in
Why do i try?
To explain once again

Why do i try
To love again
When i will just hurt
With a broken heart that wont mend

Im in this feeling that you dont understand
You just turn around and say that you do

Im in a world
where im not accepted
Im not in love
I have no fans

Im have a life
With no dreams
No faith anymore
Just an unknown face