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-* -*- not a poem, i just wanted to share what this website has given me -*-*-

i just saw a poem about suicide, written by a guy who was thinking about it because he thinks his life makes no sense at all, because he thinks that he is not worth it anymore and he will never be happy, i have to say that just as life can turn bad In a wink, it also can became better than you could imagine... i used to be in that place some time ago, i was thinking that i wasn't worth at all... my father and my girlfriend passed away on an accident about 2 years ago, i was the driver that day and i spent a long time in the hospital i was in a coma and officially dead for 35 secs, i was brought to life... a lot of people told me it was a miracle, at the moment for me was nothing but bad luck or a punishment from god, even tho i was alive i was dead inside, feeling like i should be the one dead and not my father or my girlfriend... that day was when it all started, i tried to kill myself more than once, people kept telling me i was lucky... i just kept thinking that i was failing and that id just try it all over again... i was like that, surviving with a dead and filthy heart... but then everything changed when i met a girl in here, i commented in one of her poems and she replied, we became friends and after a couple months we were a couple... everything just seemed to be perfect between us, and still is perfect, I´ve lived more pain than anyone should, every tear, every stitch, every drop of blood just made me stronger and made me realize that nothing can break us but ourselves, we always have a choice we can choose to keep waiting for a miracle that will change our lives, or we can realize that we are those miracles, every single second alive is a gift and every minute you spend sad or complaining about your life... are 60 seconds we could have been laughing with a friend or spending time with someone we love and care about... trust me when i say this, suicide ain't the answer, you may feel like it is at the time... but those around you surely doesn't... we are not god we cant die unless he wants us too, I've proved that more than once... now, I'm engaged to the girl i met here, we are going to get married next February.. and you know what? it's true, I've cried more than anyone should have and suffered more than anyone should have but id surely do it all over again, without a second thought just to be in the place i am now... for the first time in my life i feel whole, i feel safe... i know that the people I've lost are still with me living in my heart... and all I'm trying to say... is that the best thing you can do is keep holding on, because when you less expect it someone will come, grab your hand and even all that you have lived... you will feel the luckiest person in earth, all the tears I've cried, all the blood I've spilled and all the pain I've felt... does not compare with the joy and love that gave the life back to my heart, she showed me to smile and dream again, that sad, angry man does not exist anymore, that person that i saw in the mirror every time doesn't exist anymore... now, the only person who exists in me is that lucky bastard she calls his boyfriend and lives in the reflection of her eyes....

stay strong, give life and yourselves a second chance.. you deserve it.

god bless you all.