Dad's Eulogy

I wrote this for my dad who was killed along with my uncle on 6th May 2009. RIP

Nothing can replace what was taken from my life and my heart,
And to explain what kind of man he was, it's just impossible to start.
You may have passed from this world and when it's all done and said,
People think that you have gone, but you are certainly not dead.

You were the direction in my life that i would follow,
And all of that was taken replaced with heartbreak and sorrow.

Because of you my decisions were so easy to make,
And you told me what streets i needed to take.

I feel that we;ve now taken a wrong turn,
And there is a new direction that i need to learn.

I'm in a different lane now and it needs to change,
but my love for you remains the same.

Why does this road i walk not comfort me?
My mind keeps racing down some other street.

I don't think you will
Ever fully understand,
How you've touched my life
And made me who i am.

You fought so hard to be there for us
No one can say that's wrong,
I'm finding now it's so hard to deem
That after all this time, you're gone.

Your life with us was all but a race
And we thought we had the time,
But life and death travel too fast
And death beat you to the line.

A part of my life is forever lost
You;re not here to guide my way,
But deep inside i know you're there
And while i drive, you navigate.

"Goodbye is not the end,"
That's what people say,
But they don't understand
I can no longer speak to you everyday.

I used to see the most beautiful things
The very foundation of a smile,
Those beautiful things because of you
You made them so worth while.

I miss so much the way you were
And those looks in your eyes,
I miss the sound of your voice
Piggy backs and shoulder rides.

You held my hand when we crossed the street
And watched over me as i slept,
You carried me when i grazed my knees
And held me close as i wept.

You taught me how to bargin
And how to ride a bike,
You taught me how to deal with things
The things you knew i didn't like.

I miss waiting for your calls
When you rang each and every day,
You would stay on the phone just to talk
Until we ran out of things to say.

But you know that you are everything
And my love for you is true,
I never asked for anything
But the one thing in the world i want is you.

Your love is what kept me strong
And kept my heart in beat,
And i'm sure that it is safe to say
Without you i'm incomplete.

For everything there must come a last
A finish, an end, or goodbye,
Most we learn in life to value
But it all changes when you die.

A last minute, a last hour, a last day, month, or year.
A last drink, a last coke, a last tequila, scotch or beer.

A last love, a last heart, a last kiss, huge or rage.
Or even the last words, written on a page.

But the worst last of all, is your last breath,
Because what you leave behind, is worse than your death.

Copywrite 15th May 2009