Oh this is really sad. Its a wonder how some people are, know from the sound of this poem, i felt the love you had for him, the emotions and the affection you had for him, he turned his back and left and on your face left grim. Letting go is one of the hardest things, but gradually it comes, there is nothing that time cannot heal, just give yourself time, ask yourself whats best and make a decision. Really great poem.