Didn't Have To Leave

Shes been unhappy for quite awhile, but she can not figure out why,
All her thoughts seem to be about suicide, and how she wants to die.
She feels so confused; she doesnt want to be here,
She doesnt want her friends, to pretend that they care.

She can not really explain it, but she doesnt think she is worth their time,
She just wants them to forget, and leave her behind,
Then it would be easier, to finish her deed.
With her suicide she will finally succeed.

No one can know, what shes planning to do,
With one cut too deep, she will forget all she knew.
Plans of her suicide have swum in her mind,
She will never regret what she had to leave behind.

Her thoughts consist of memories, all this hurt and pain,
No one will know she tried, over and over again.
She felt so worthless, didnt want them to care,
Whats the point, when she doesnt want to be here?

Her dream is to leave, and find someone to love,
And the only place she thinks she will find them is up above.
It's the only place she thinks she is worth; she doesnt feel she belongs,
No ones ever known it, but shes felt it for so long.

She feels so confused as she watches the blood run down her arm,
She cant seem to stop; all she does is cause herself more harm.
She doesnt want people to worry, she has pretended for so long,
She doesnt want them to know, that she cant stay strong.

Her thoughts are confusing her; words seem to crumble when she tries,
Nothing seems to come out, except her muffled cries.
She tries her best to tell them, how she really feels,
But how can she trust them, will they even know that its real?

The day is coming closer; she will hide it from them all,
They will never know that she had already started to fall.
Her suicide will be complete; she will no longer have to pretend.
She will no longer have to smile, and wait for her heart to mend.

The day she finally succeeds, they will find a little note,
Im sorry and goodbye, is all she wrote.
It will be a shock to everyone, but still she wont believe,
That they all loved her, and she did not have to leave.