She cant seem to understand, what went wrong,
What suddenly happened, why cant she stay strong?
She cant explain it to anyone, her world just turned black,
And to be totally honest she doesn't care if it goes back.
She just wants to know why, things seem so bad
Why she has to pretend to be happy, and why shes always sad.
Why her thoughts are always filled with suicide and hate,
Maybe its telling her that this is all fate.
She cant seem to believe anyone, she think they all lie,
Shell never let them know, that she wants to die.
Just to leave this world, forget all the pain,
She still cant seem to trust anyone, so theres nothing to gain.
She doesn't know what to do; she just wants it to end,
She doesn't want people to care, not even all her friends.
If she goes through with her plan, what happens if she fails?
Everyone will then know, of her betrayals.
Shes told them she stopped; there are no new cuts under her sleeve,
If she were to fail, would they ever believe?
She has so much to doubt, and she doesn't know what to do,
She just wants it all to end; she wants to forget all she knew.
After her suicide, they will all know that she deceived.
If she ever tried to tell them the truth, they probably never believed,
She will have one final goodbye; she will leave it in a letter,
Then finally for her, things will start to get better.
If she actually succeeds, in her suicide,
She will no longer have to pretend, she will no longer have to hide.
She wont have to face the world; she will be happy up above,
She wont have to pretend that she deserves to be loved.
