Hyperventilation and panic attacks

I can't feel today
Nothing is what it seems
Lonely might have been the month of May
But June has stolen away all my dreams

I tried to be peaceful today
I had nothing but hell all day though
Bleeding was a relief in a way
It's amazing how blood makes my life go

I told you I cut again today
"I only wanted to know what was real"
(At the time my favorite cliche)
I screamed those obscenities as I began to feel

I hated myself today
Nothing could make me happy
Darkness to end another day
"Death on the rocks, make it snappy"

I tried not to hurt today
Nothing would let me relax
I felt everything much to my dismay
The only thing that today lacks-
Hyperventilation and panic attacks