My heart is slowly changing,
Emptying until nothing is left
Sadness sweeping into the depths of my soul
Almost like a painful numbness
Life is becoming a mindless whirl wind
Leaving confusion so thick in my mind behind
Pushing me through moments I no longer comprehend
Times I barely notice
Suffocating
Like these lost feelings are encompassing me totally
Completely
And I don't know how to fight it
Not even sure if I have the energy to do so
I feel drained,
Hopeless and thoughtless
Depression and despair drowning me to the core
Is this how I am meant to live?
A miserable shell of the vibrant young woman I should be?
I want to be alive
Crave for the love I know I deserve
And yet it all seems so far out of reach
How can I awaken myself
When I no longer want to see the moonlight
Without her love,
It seems almost as if the color has seeped from my vision
The sharp pain from this loss leaves me paralyzed
Practically protruding from the walls surrounding my tattered emotions
Must I really go on?
I am unsure if I will ever feel whole again
Maybe I am truly broken
Truly meant to be this dark shadow drifting through this world
What if I am not strong enough to make it?
Why bother fight it?
Just release the pain,
Myself
Let it all go and mingle with this cold breeze blowing through me
Disappear
