Unexplainable

Sitting on the porch
Watching all the stars
Trying to hide all the pain
And all the old scares

It doesn't matter now
Thats all behind me
Maybe I should start over
So I can clearly see

I look into the mirror
Into those bright blue eyes
Sparkling in the light
To what of my surprise

I just heard the thunder
My day is about to begin
Its a scary thought
But I guess Ill have to give in

I walk back outside
To stand in the storm
I want to see mother nature in action
Just once more

I hate to admit it
No one knows why
Not even myself
As of why I began to cry

The wind picks up speed
I get a glimpse of the sky
I widen the spread of my arms
And from there I pretend to fly

I pretend I can fly far
Far away enough from this place
To be somewhere
To just have a smile on my face

I'm not sure if thats what I really want
We will just have to wait and see
Who knows, it may
Turn out to be the real me

April 2008