if only you knew how i felt, then i wouldnt be here today writing such a mess. our friendship is rocky, or should i say the past tense "was" rocky? because now there is no friendship between you and i... i've hurt you many times and always seemed to apologize and yet i never seemed to learned. i really dont blame you for doing what you do because i know i would probably do the same. but you must know, i never meant to hurt you like i did, for i was just afraid of losing such an amazing friend like you. yes, im afraid. whenever you were mad and ignored me, i felt so alone and i needed you at times when you did that. the most hardest thing in the world to me is apologizing to someone, and yet im doing this for you. i know at times it may seem like i didnt care but i truly did, i truly do and i always will.
