I find it all very strange, somewhat confusing
About the way I feel for you
It was almost 3 years; you can say almost a shame
Part of me still can't believe that we're through
Saying I was crazy over you is an understatement
Obsessed would be a better word
Whatever you wanted I was willing to comply
It wasn't about me, but what you preferred
I got too attached; I did things that weren't me
All for the sake of pleasing you
I was no longer myself but rather a model that you made
I even lost friends in the process too
It took you going away for me to finally see the truth
One day I looked and saw that I wasn't happy
That I was living my life only for you and your pleasures
I had forgotten all about little old me
So it's hard to believe that I don't love you now
And after everything we've come to this
But my heart just isn't in it now
Everything has gone amiss
I tried to explain to you what I wanted
But of course you never did hear
What I wanted always came second
My words, all in vain fell on deaf ears
I didn't understand why I had to beg you to do things
With you always wanting something in return
Why couldn't you do it simply because I asked?
I guess it was a lesson I had to learn
I was clouded by all the "Baby I Need Yous" and "I Love Yous"
Not that I didn't believe that they weren't true
But in my mind they were starting to fall short
Because you never seemed to come through
Promises meant nothing to me after a while
Or should I call them excuses or lies
And with everyone broken my heart ripped a little more
But yet still I continued to try
Things weren't all bad for the most they were good
But in the end it just proved to be too much
You weren't what I needed or wanted
I could no longer be your crutch
I wanted so much for you, for us
But it's well known that you can't change a man
I'm not saying that I was perfect because God knows I'm not
All I ever wanted for you to understand
So now that we're apart its like damn this is crazy
Because months ago I would have done anything for you
But my life is moving on and I couldn't be more excited
Because to myself I'm finally being true
