Depression part 2

Depression it's like a Addison to me once i start i can't stop it's like a rush to me the loneliness i feel the sadness i am used to the pain. so many though racing throw my mind wondering why i am like this why should anyone be alone like me. i though i was taking my love but instead it was lust not love the passion of the flesh gets what it wants it like a drug once you start you can't stop the rush of the passion can not be beet so i give into the lust of the passion to heart become as one in this world if you don't have love then what do you have?