Stars

Few years ago it was,
As the sky darkened and my room dimmed
I sat on my bed like a little girl, Lost
Looking out my window, countin the stars
Rememberin all the boundaries i had to cross
I should of known better
I should of listened
I snap back to reality as the stars start to glisten
Sparkling lightly and calling my name
as i ignore their whispers and remember their pain
Once upon a time i used to smile at the stars
Hoping against hope that we were counting the same ones

Few years ago it was
I lay curled up in bed, Crying your name
Sliting my wrists to get rid of the pain
Knocking back pills as i silently slept
Reciting your name as i painfully wept.