How do you decide between life and death? Although you think your life sucks it
does have its joys doesnt it. But we all have curiosity to know what happens to us
after we die. Do we live on like everyone says. Or are you just gone? No one can
say that they would like there to be nothing after death because in a way its like a
second chance. Do you accept your fate? If you believe in fate. Or do you hurt
yourself and the people around you? Some people call it being selfish that you take
your life. I bet those people have never been pushed far enough to try. Many things
go through your mind as you say it to yourself. I am going to kill myself. over and
over. But then that knife slides across your wrist and it goes silent. Youve never
felt so free. Youve never felt anything like this. You could never describe that
feeling. Its impossible. I have come to realize everything that would shoot through
your mind as you made that quick motion with your arm. You would think about
family, friends, that crush you have at school, things you love like the smell of rain,
and last but not least you would think about tomorrow. What would happen
tomorrow if you lived? Tomorrow could have been the happiest day of your life. So
when you think about that you start to feel tired and you realize that you are
bleeding. As your adrenaline kicks in you quickly wash your scar and wrap it up.
When you wrap it up you not only wrap up the wounds but you block out the
depression. A scab forms over night as you sleep. When you wake up that scab is a
reminder that your curiosity could get carried away and that your life isnt that bad.
You wear a long sleeve shirt that is blue today and appreciate that you are still in
alive and in love.
