I took little notice of them.
The clouds, the moon and the stars.
Giving all away my longing,
I silently took leave.
Alone in my little world,
drowning in its sorrow,
I looked up desperately and found you
staring at me with a smile in your eyes.
Standing up as I took your hand,
I saw the sparkle in your eyes,
the light and gentle warmth in your smile,
and a vague yet present virtue slowly slipping off your mask.
I simply shrugged the feelings away and returned your loving smile.
By and by we walked across the field,
with the cold autumn breeze sweeping past us.
Then, you suddenly stopped.
Slowly, you took your hand up and faced me
with your features so pure and dazzling, I couldn't help but glue my eyes on you.
And eventually, my smile grew soft and sweet by your sight.
And as sure as the autumn skies watching over us,
I grew to understand your warmth.
Soon, I understood your love.
And as it so goes, I fell in love.
But your words tore me from my senses;
brought me to an unbelievable shock.
How could you do this to me?
How could you hurt me this way?
That silver band on your finger,
what is it supposed to mean when you are in love with someone else?
So as my face drowns out of color,
I looked away and found myself smiling.
You are my best friend.
And here you are, crying out of joy.
You're happy...
You're happy.
So tell me now who he is,
the man that took you from me.
And I shall hide my hate and smile for you
And when I come home tonight, I will cry
for my heart has missed out on acknowledging your love.
And unmistakeably, it has brought me to lose you.
I will miss you.
I will miss holding you.
I will miss laughing alongside you.
And finally again, I will miss you, the only woman who has seen the man I am and had always been.
And as cliched as it goes.
Here, at this moment in time.
Under that azure autumn sky, I bid you and your love goodbye
and surrender to the depression I've chosen since so long ago.
