Have you ever seen the sun set in the morning? Have you ever seen the sun rise at
night? And did you give her warning before you kissed her out of fright. Because
youve wanted to kiss her every day since you first met. And you want to tell her
what you think but you cant do it. But I will not close my eyes and help you
destroy this melancholy existence of a premature world. No I wont help you
destroy your life. When did loving someone become a god damn crime. I told her
what I thought and her response was never mind. So when will I get my chance to
sit up there in the hall, and know exactly what shes thinking instead of nothing at
all. Because I wont help myself destroy my life and I dont know why. Ive got to
get up and help myself. Dont destroy your life. Youll get help somewhere else.
Thats a message I sent to myself as I sat and thought about her today. She means
the world. She gives me shivers. I get cold and want a blanket but I cant do it. I feel
like Im paralyzed from the neck down. I cant hear a sound. Not one sound floats
into these ears of mine. I can imagine her screaming at me but I yell please go away.
Yes please go away my heart aches too much today. It aches because I tell someone
who I love. And they turn around I can hear every sound all of the rumors all of the
laughs. Will this love stay with me? I dont know lets wait and see. We will watch
my life on this everlasting tv show and pretend its not me. But she wont pretend
with me. She knows its me and that my heart will ache even on the silver screen.
