Thank you for being there =]

Life has my thoughts spinning in circles
confusing my mind with many things,
it brings my heart pain
my eye's tears....

I feel I can't go on in this world
yet I still keep living in sorrow
I question my exsistance every moment I take a breathe,
I can't stand watching my blood seep from my vains all the time
when will it end?

I've felt this way from when my past began
it hunted my dreams for a very long time already
bringing nothing but misery,
My joy comes from only screams of suffering
I love when I see or hear torture
it's odd for me to feel this way
but I guess it's the events that occur....

Suicide has been in my thoughts for many years
I have tried but have not succeeded
only because of those who care for me deeply,
So I keep on in life only for the love I have for them
they never give up on me!
Some leave and it hurts
others stay bringing me to realization about many various things
they are my reason for my heart to keep pumping,
If I was truly alone then I would be gone already
but even though I feel that way
I'm not.....

they'll always be with me,
no matter what events occur
so thank you,
every one who has been there for me and every one who will never give up on me
I will Love You for Life
even after my last breath has come!!!!!!!!!!