Nightmares

These nightmares keep being repeated,
I wish they all could just be deleted.
I wake with this haunted feeling,
Through out the day there is never healing.
I fear the time when it comes to sleep,
All because this feeling sinks to deep.
Leaving me in a black whole,
This feeling is taking control.
I don't know how to put it to an end,
Let it all go and just let it mend.
It's even harder cuz I can't talk to you,
Sometimes I just wish you knew.
I'm afraid to say all I want to say,
Because I'm not so sure it's ok.
For you may think I don't believe in us,
Then everything well just turn into a big fuss.
So I can't just push it aside and forget,
I'm so afraid of losing you Bret.
In each nightmare it happens once more,
Different ways of course then before.
But either way I end up alone,
Thrown out like a stone.
Every time it seems to be worse,
Making a peaceful sleep seems diverse.
I wish I could make this feeling banish,
Just disappear and vanish.
Cuz these nightmares make it hard to sleep,
I stair up at the walls again and begin weep.