Just Another Mistake

How i feel is hard to explain
the wrongs i've done have caused this pain
i've brought this upon myself i can't complain
but these feelings i feel are too insane

Im not the type that likes to share
i told myself i wouldn't care
i knew very well, i was well aware
but sometimes life's just so unfair

The sickest part is that we both could
we did, although you said you never would
Im not sure what you feel, i never understood
I thought it was right, thought it was good

At first it was clear, we could both admit
we were physically attracted, but thats about it
more feelings came as our friendship grew strong
but i never knew where and if i belonged

we pretend we know nothing about what's going on
although its not what i like it's what's drawn
Slowly these feelings feel foregone
but as they say, it's darkness before dawn

so my question to you is, where do i stand?
what am i to you? an answer i demand
i wish i didn't regret what i like the most from you
you left me no choice, but i just never knew

- Ana Contreras