Immortal Game

Always a game, but never an end
I can't remember how I started
But I know how it will eventually end.
I've forgotten all the rules
And can't remember how I'm meant to win.

Every time I open my eyes
I wish I hadn't, and close them tight
I've seen too many things to forget
And things to awful to believe I'll be ok
To believe that there's a happy ending

I'm too traumatized to talk
And too strong to tell you I'm not okay
That I need your help, that I need you to stay
I try and reach out to you, to take your hand
But I can't get a grip and I'm slowly slipping away

My lips are stuck silently shut
But my eyes leak the truth, and scream for your help
If only you understood, you wouldn't wipe away my desperate pleas
Maybe you'd pull me out, and take me away
Or make me a new game that maybe I'm allowed to win

I can't fake anymore smiles
And pretend anymore laughs
I'm bruised and broken stuck in a pit
There isn't any light to be seen
Or any way out

I'm stuck in a hell, that others created
Match made for me, that will never let me go
They know my weaknesses and how to hurt me
And constantly upgrade if I show any strength
Keeping me down here with no escape

I'm never allowed to leave
I was young when this game began
But the game will never stop there is no end
No end for the game, no end for me
I'm dead inside but there is no game over