When I close my eye's at night
my mind goes into a trance
I think about death around me
where every one I know and don't know bleeds
they feel a suffering that I see in myself,
It hurts to visualize these things
yet at the same time it drives me....
My depression is part of the reason of these events
as well my rage!
Is this going to happen throughout my whole life?
If so I mind as well end it
Suicide is always in my thoughts anyway
but is it really going to help me forget?
A question I ponder on every second I take in air,
with every heart beat I feel numb
like I'm Paralyzed,
I want to give up
is it the way to go?
I hate that all these event keep occurring
I know I can't go on
yet I still try to move forward in this world
to make myself some one who is better then what he is now,
I hope I reach my mission
so for now my journey is still flowing with me!!!!!!!!!
