A long time ago when I was trying to kill myself
my family and friends tried there best to prevent it
I was sent into a mental hospital many various times because of self harm
also because of harming others,
They did succeed on keeping me alive
but in my thoughts I wish they didn't ....
Now I just live my life and remember all the laughs I have with them
trying not to act on suicide
but it has become really hard
I feel like I need to cut everyday again
I feel like my life is nothing and there is no fixing it
yet I yearn for more than a major rage problem
more then a major depression problem
so I go on in this world trying my best,
But for a lot of people my best isn't enough
they want me to change right away
they want to help
but this is a journey I have to do myself!
I tell them this,
they still insist there's something they can do.....
I just want to die
I'm waiting it out until my last breath has come
I say F this world
F this life and everything in it
it's useless to me,
I can't wait until my grave comes
then I'll finally be happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
