The truth

Is this reality or a dream?
confusion is her life theme
the bad memory's took over the good ones
shes tired of it, from her problems she always runs
she decided to face her fears and go back
back to the time where her world turned black
she closes her eyes and takes a deep breath
hoping this solution will keep her away from death
she goes back to the time where she was a kid
that was when behind that smile, her tears hid
when kids would run around and have fun
she wouldn't bother, thats when the misery begun
at night, the nightmares would keep her awake
when she woke up, she started to shake
it seemed so real, but she doesn't know
that as she continued, into a nightmare her life grows
thats when she went back to that time
where she felt excluded, like a mime
even by her family, her words would be ignored
she could swear that she used to be adored
attention, she starts to crave
its impossible, so around them she behaves
quiet as she can be, not to get in the way
around her family, she feels like a stray
she opens her tearful eyes because she finally saw
they're the ones that made her withdraw
shes never been the problem, but the result
she spent her childhood acting as an adult
it seemed like the only way to fit in
but even with all the effort, she would never win
she gives up, she finally stops faking
because deep inside her personality started aching
she thinks she finally got it right, but shes wrong
she cant change, shes been fake for too long
so she gives in to the person she became today
but she will no longer let others get in her way
she learned from her one big mistake
because the truth allowed her to be awake