Walking down a lonely road,
Nobody in sight.
I am all alone.
Mind infected by impurity,
Mind is racing,
But not a single thought.
Everything you are,
Is everything I wish you were not.
Tired, oh so tired.
Tired of putting on a mask.
Tired of being to scared to ask.
Not anymore,
I will ask the question now.
Do you even care? Do you still think about me at all?
With a cringed face,
and a clenched jaw,
I will wait for your response.
If I do recall correctly,
This is not at all what love is about.
Not at all what love consists of.
No anger, no rage.
No bitterness, no sadness.
The unfortunate part,
you are my biggest influence.
You were the one who taught me this all.
I feel so betrayed.
So incredibly deceived.
Never have I felt such bewilderment.
Step by step,
This road will lead me no where.
With every step I take,
I realize I am closer and closer to the dead end.
I am getting closer,
the space is closing in.
But I refuse to buckle under,
I can not let myself give in.
I will not fall.
I look back down the path I came from,
All I feel is shame.
Shame I let myself reach the end of the rainbow without realizing this...
Hardships come and go.
Happiness never stays.
My life is like a river's current...
Constantly changing ways.
Sometimes fast, sometimes slow,
But I will always know where I came from.
My roots are my home.
