Tears stream down my face silently
Why did it have to be this way?
All I have to hold onto is memories
But I keep hoping you'll be back one day
Smiles are forced
Laughs are fake
Inside I'm a lost little girl
Will you come back for my sake?
People think I'm so strong
I let you go
My best friend, my whole world
They just don't know
I cry every night because of you
Reading your messages day and night
Why am I still crying over you?
I thought without you I'd be alright
I was so beyond wrong
Without you I just don't have reason
So I just sit here by the window
Nothing changing no matter the season
The nights grow longer
My eyes are blood shot,
I cant close them
For I haven't forgot
Your smile, your laugh
They haunt me day and night
Why cant I let your memory fade?
I'm losing this fight
Why is everyone calling me strong?
Can they not see what's going on?
Well I never let them see me cry
They wont notice I'm gone
Slipping out my window
Nothing but the clothes on my back
I carry the knife in my hand
It's time I finish this act
I sit under this willow tree
Remembering your voice, our goodbye,
A bittersweet smile spreads across my face
Maybe you wont mind if I die
Gripping the dagger in hand
I plunge it into my chest
Amazingly I feel nothing, no pain at all
Know this was for the best
My eyes close slowly
There's still that smile on my face
I swear I hear you screaming my name
I feel your embrace
You're holding me tightly
Holding my hand
Are those tears in your eyes?
You're telling me to stay,
saying it like a demand
I can only manage a whisper
But I'll waste my last breath for you
It wont be long
These words are overdue
"I love you
But this needed to be done
Don't blame yourself
I just came undone"
With that my body goes limp
But I can still hear you screaming
Still see the tears falling from your eyes
Soon enough though I'll figure out...
That I was just dreaming
