Kills Me

by Anna   Jul 12, 2009


Remember I love you
But I've been used
You never loved me
I would say sorry
But it's not my fault
Not this time

I used to be love struck
Now I'm just messed up
I used to have it all
But I've fallen
You abused me
Tore me to pieces
I'm the person I am today because of you
I'm broken
Alone...
Hurt
All because of you

All we had is over now
You don't know how much it hurts...
To know that I cant say I love you
Well I could but you would just laugh in my face
It hurts so much to say good-bye
To just turn around and forget
You wont even remember
But I will always hold onto your memory
Even though it brings me tears
Sorrow
Pain
It also brings me happiness
Peace
Comfort
Because it makes me remember you
Not this boy I know now
But the boy that loved me too

Whenever I remember the day we met
I try my very best not to break down
I don't let the first tear fall
I try to smile
Try to laugh it off and say I don't care
But everyone know that's a lie
Sometimes I wish I had never met you
For than all this pain...this sorrow
Wouldn't be here
But I think again
If I hadn't met you I would've died
You saved me when everything was going wrong
Saved me from my life crumbling to pieces around me
You came inside and fixed me...
Fixed what was broken
And for that I will be forever grateful
I will always love you for that

So tell me...
What happened?
Why did you turn your back on me?
Why did you go and break me?
You took the time to fix me before...
So why did you go and break what you mended?
I know I hurt you...
But I know, if you let me,I can fix it
I just need you to understand that I regret what I did
I regret it oh so very much
I'm not going to say it's his fault
Because it's not
I let him do it...and I even did it back to him
But if you wont hear me out...
If you wont let me fix what I have broken
At least let me say one last thing
One last thing before I leave for good
Everyday I live with this regret...this pain
I regret doing what I did...
For when you found out...
when I told you, that look on your face shattered my heart
I live with the pain of remembering the pain I put you through
Every time I remember that day...
That look on your face...
The one single tear that fell from your eye
It breaks me to pieces over and over again
Just know that it kills me more than it kills you
And I'll never forgive myself for what I did
What I put you through

How did it come to this?
Why did we throw it away?
I keep on fighting...
But I cant keep on going on this way
I keep on running
But it's time to end this game
It's time to say good-bye

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