I'm still finding it hard to believe that you're really gone...
People think I'm strong because I haven't cried
I cant cry...
Why would I?
I don't think you're gone...
It hasn't registered in my head yet
But just wait...
When it does, everything will come to the surface
Than will they still call me strong?
I doubt it...
Every night before I go to sleep...
I look at your picture
Imagine your laughter in my ear
Then I can laugh myself to sleep
Instead of crying as I close my eyes
I can smile while I slowly drift to sleep
Instead of whimpering softly to myself
But since I will never get to hug you...
I clutch your picture close to my heart
Afraid if I don't that you'll fade away
I don't want to forget you...
I've been counting the days...
The hours
The minutes
Even the seconds since you left
It's been exactly...
3 days
2 hours
18 minutes
and 36 seconds
No one knows that I'm doing this...
If anyone did they would probably think I'm losing my mind
But they'd only be half right...
Because I only had half my mind to lose...
You stole the other half that night...
Tonight I'm curled up on the couch...
Just pretending that I'm laying in your arms
I'm watching our favorite TV show...
Somehow I still manage to laugh
Though I remember when parts like this would come up...
The parts that made me want to cry...
When those parts came up...
You would hold me even closer and tell me how much you loved me
If even a single tear would fall from my eyes...
You would gently take my face in your hands
Then with all the passion you had, you would kiss me
I'd kiss you back...
And instead of crying, I'd be smiling the whole night
Your kisses always made it impossible to cry...
Now it's sinking in...
The rain's falling down hard today
Probably because mother nature's mourning too
I think seeing you in that coffin makes it all come to me
You're really gone...
No more kisses...
No more laying in your arms...
No more laughs...
No more tears...
Nothing...
I smile when I go up and say my last good-bye
But it's not long before the tears come
I touch your face with the gentlest of touches
I'm afraid that you may just break...
I see a small speck of water of your face
I notice it's my tears falling onto you so white and perfect...
They pull me away...
And now I know you're really gone...
You told me you would never go...
You promised...
But you left me here...
Left me to cry these tears
Left me with this broken heart
