The Epiphany

I sit here and wonder, how much is at stake?
My tears fall steady and my heart wont stop aching-
So weak from the let downs its constantly taking.

Though I try to stay strong, I can feel myself breaking...
And I know there is only so much I can take.

Smiles, though fake, are my only disguise
To the lonely, the hurt, the wrong and the lies
My life- "what I want" and my life- "what i hide"

They're one in the same when i look deep inside...
And decide that I've failed despite how much I tried.

No more Bonnie and Clyde - and allow you to do you
If you've made up your heart and your mind that you're thru.
Not that I don't love you, you just don't have a clue

I'm wishing something new, something borrowed, something blue...
You're wishing you just had another girl that you could screw. Ew.

So what else can i do? But just learn to let go...
Learn to move on, and next time to go slow.
Cuz after all this love, pain is all i have to show.

Your actions tell me all the truth I need to know...
That things aren't what they seem, and this love took it's toll.