Everyone was getting ready
To leave the house and go say there goodbyes
Goodbyes are always so hard for me
I just want to be loved
I was gettin ready
Cry after cry
This was truly it
I couldnt let go
I took some pills
I then fell asleep
At everything that happin 2day i was totally numb
I miss him so much
I want to die to
I know he will be in heaven
In heaven reaching out his hand for me
I want that big pa hug
I want the joy he brought into my life
I never walked alone
Looking back he was always right behind
Only last summer
We were on vacation
the vacations i will never for get
The races, the hot tub, all the shows
Its now my sister and my job
To keep him alive
Alive to the younger grandchildern
After all were are his world
I need help getting through this
I cant do it on my own
I wish this was all a bad dream
I just want to wake up and get a hug
