I was attempted raped
in late '06
Mentally it took a toll on me
By way of not trusting any male gender that is dark skinned
Physically I could not commit the same sin
(by which put to death my spiritual life)
(also of which took away my spiritual fruits)
By way of not accepting any relationship for nearly 3 years
Emotionally it made me distant & stern with even the nice trusting males.
By way of accusing them before they commit an error or for something that I misinterpreted.
If I was to be in a situation once again
I would not allow them to hurt me any further than my memory
It is better for me to hurt & prevent them from accomplishing their evil acts
Than to have myself violated in such a way.
To then affect my whole being & the rest of my life.
That way they get hurt a tiny bit
And I get stained once again with the terrible memories.
Don't dare make me want or attempt to die.
I might take all men down with me!
