The Day She Chose

She doesn't know how she is feeling, terrible thoughts go through her head,
How can she tell them, she would rather be dead?
They wouldn't understand, what she does to survive,
And that at times, she doesn't want to be alive.

She cuts, and she drinks, just to get through each day,
No one knows, about the pain she hides away,
She cant explain, nor does she want to share.
She doesn't want to people to think they have to care.

She tries to stop, but she never succeeds,
Maybe pain is something she really needs.
No one could understand, the pain she feels inside,
And at least no one knows, she is planning her suicide,

When people ask if she is okay, she tries her best to lie,
She hides behind her fake smile, the one preventing her to cry.
She doesn't know why she feels this way, but she thinks she is to blame,
Maybe things would be different, if she didn't fall for his stupid game.

She doesn't know what happened, but he broke her heart,
She knows he never meant to, but since then she fell apart.
Her friends have start to notice, her smile falling to the ground,
She hopes they dont start to realize, she doesn't want to be around.

She has it all planed, she knows what to do,
Just convince them she is fine, and then she will go through.
She will wait till the day; she has planned her last breath,
Nobody will know when she falls to her death.

She decided to write a letter, telling them goodbye.
She hopes that when they read it, no one will cry.
Late one night, all alone, she reached for her blade,
She pressed it to her skin, ready to end her charade.

The blood was dripping down, and so were the tears,
Nobody knew, she had felt like this for years,
With one last breath, she said goodbye.
And that was the day, she chose to die.