I wonder

I wonder if your happy in heaven?
And you are where you want to be?
I wonder if you still think about your family?
And if you still think about me?

I wonder why you told me things
That were clearly just untrue?
Like when you said "I love you"
And "I'll always be here for you"

I wonder if you thought of me
Before you took your life?
I wonder if you know how I feel
When i say you stabbed my heart with a knife?

I wonder if you know because of you
I can't even trust my boyfriend?
And I don't want to hear anyone say I love you
because I know how the story ends

I wonder what its like for you in heaven
To watch me be someone I don't want to be
And if you ever came back home just for a minute
I wonder what you'd say to me