Violently Shaking

First time I've cried
In thirty-five days
Put a gun to my temple
And blow out my brains

Metaphorically speaking
I'm really right here
Putting seconds into minutes
Taking months out of years

Violently shaking
Compulsively cold
How does one hang on
With nothing to hold

Stomach turns over
I guess this is it
Pulling the trigger
One more plot twist