Sick of this vapid state of being
Where having to escape your own thoughts is nearly impossible
And not even these dark silhouettes the wall displays can keep you company in the slightest
The fear is not dying, but dying alone; A lonely heart is the question to the answer
You say it's irrelevant that people will disappoint you
Maybe it's because you're one of them
It's a good thing tears are clear otherwise the sheets would surely be stained
With the faint colors of distraught emotions
And memories that were meant to stay
I wish i could say it was all a dream, but sadly that's not the case
To slip back into a sweet reverie is one of my great desires
Because it seems what i need most is the comfort of a utopia all my own
But every cloud has a silver lining, or so they say
And by the time the leaves begin to change color I'll surely be able to see the beauty of the sun's warm rays
Save me a goodbye and just leave this place
I'll be happier when you're gone
Even though the empty space inside my chest will still feel like a black hole
Repressed memories will fade into the farthest ends of my mind, and you shall invade my thoughts no longer
I'm happy to say that I'll have moved on when the first winter wind will have blessed my face
No more hurt; At least none that you've contributed to
I'm sorry that I couldn't be your everything
I knew that it wasn't meant to last
I just hope you're happy with just any other girl
Cause frankly that's all you're worth
Therefore I shouldn't apologize for something that you did
I shouldn't have to struggle to live up to you're expectations
So I guess this is goodbye
It's about time
You obviously lied that first Monday of July
Because you still hung around
But not anymore
I'll never see you again, and it's for the best
I hope you remember that song i showed you
It's practically you're life story
But of course you won't
Cause you're a forgetful mess
And i loathe you.
...you still don't know what that means.
