Sence i came home
I relize why i left
Everynite i cry to fall alseep
I turn up my ipod to block out the noise
To me its still better than a program
I like to feel loved
I cant go by all the rules
I at least feel like im ok
There is no rules here
Only secrets
I play at my day program with the other kids
I laught, run and and have funn
No one can see what im holding back
I make up stories of happinest
I tell them i cant wait to finally go home
Coming up the drivway
My heart bets faster and faster
I am scared
Sence i left home and came back
My friends no longer keep calling
I dont know what my familys telling them
My myspace and facebook
Not as many messages, Not as many text
I feel lost
This time when i left to work on myself
I truly lost alot
At the partys now
Im no longer that care free girl
I stay in the coner
Or by the door
I relize after talking to everyone
THis is wrong
People make fun of me
Said that programs messed with my head
I dont respond
I know i would of been dead by how i kept living
It has saved me
It has help me to see whats right and wrong
I no longer belong with these people
But i still love my family and friends so much
