Wow that poem was deep.. im sorry u feel that way i use to have similar thoughts but i dont think that way anymore but that cuz i got rid of the bad ppl in my life the ones who were bringing me down and that how i got better.. ur right all u got is u so way not do better and leave all the hurt in the past... thats wat i did... trust me i know wat its like to be hurt when my grandma passed away i went thru hardcore depression and i only thought about how bad i want to be with her so i tryed to kill myself so many times but it wasnt until i realized thats not wat my grandma would of wanted so i changed my way of thinking and i finally got better it takes time and alot of will power but u can do it... ((((sorry this msg is so long but i felt u needed to read it from someone who knows wat ur gonna thru..))) msg me anytime.. take care sweety