Lately ive been sitting and wondering how my life turned upside down,
im all about impressing people even if i act like a clown,
although in my heart im just sad because the one i loved has gone,
i hate how life makes you so weak that you cant even control your own feelings,
sometimes i just feel like doing stupid stuff just to get over everything,
people always tell me how perfect i am,
but no one knows what goes through my head,
i dont really care about what people have said,
all i want is my love back,
so i can be myself again,
no one knows me best but my girl......friend,
well i wish she could be .
i want her in my arms so i can be free,
thinking i can handle it without her when i know for a fact i cant,
feeling empty and lost is like being in a dark room.
no lights, no doors, no windows, just 4 walls and thinking how she will never be my groom,
i hate myself, hate this world, hate this feeling
im so depressed that my pain is not healing,
