Blyss.. 16th Nov. `92 - 23rd June `09

I know it probably isn't the best you've read, and is probably worse than something you've written..
But to tell the truth, it was written for her memory, not your entertainment, so bad comments aren't going to affect me...

9 years I knew you
and all 9 years I've loved..
Thought we'd have all the time in the world,
as it turns out, we didn't have enough.

My God, you were beautiful,
both on the inside and the out..
Filling us with happiness,
and taking away our doubt.

You were always so optimistic,
so charming, happy, true..
The light in the dark, the center,
it was you, darling, you.

But a year ago, you came undone,
you couldn't take it anymore, you snapped.
At the time I didn't understand the severity..
now all I want is to go back.

That was when it piled up,
when it started to overflow.
You were drowning in your darkness,
and I didn't even know.

Blyss, why didn't you speak to me?
you went on with every day seemingly untouched.
I guess I knew something was wrong,
but I had no idea it was so much.

And then you started cutting..
they were all so bloody deep.
The first time I saw them,
I broke down, all I could do was weep.

Crimson red on pale white,
I don't know how you did it.
Each time I saw you, i counted one more..
I just wish I was able to understand.

Your mum and I, we love you..
And sh!t, we want you back.
Even just to THINK of you,
causes crippling, excruciating agony.

I miss you, all of you.
The good, great, horrible, and the bad.
You were everything to me.. I should have said
But now? now.. it's way too late to go back..

We still love, miss, want, need and remember you..
I wish I wasn't so ignorant.

`* Blyss Samantha Hawthorne
Born, November 16th, 1992
Departed, June 23, 2009.