Why Did You Take My Christian?

I lay in my bed at night
not understanding why me
why would he take this away
did he plan this way for my life to be

pregnant at a young age
regretful yet sweet
i wanted my son so badly
but the lord took him from me

i smiled as i felt him twist in my belly
i sung to him every night
i rubbed him everyday
but it just wasnt good enough..right?

i named him Christian
prepared for his birth day
he was my everything
but he was taken away

to this day
i have not a clue of why the lord chose me
why would he take my Christian?
everyone around me saying "it wasnt meant to be"

but im stuck in my crys
wondering why
what did i do wrong
why on earth do i deserve for my son to die

lord tell me why
as i cry again
why oh why
did you take my Christian

*i made this poem out of grief after losing my son at 5 months pregnant..hope you like it*