Sorry I Couldnt Cry

I watched you walk out of my life knowing it was a test
Try as i might i couldn't pass even though i did my best
I remember watching as you left hoping i would call your name
But i didn't and you left causing unbearable pain

In those few moments from love to heartbreak i felt my heart grow numb
I now keep it all bottled up i guess you could say im dumb
You and me were meant to be do you think that was a lie
If you are reading this right let me say sorry i couldn't cry

I really want you in my life you never should have left
I'm not saying its all your fault it put some blame on myself
I pushed you and i hurt i caused you un-needed stress
But you have to experience my worst to know me at my best

Let me apologize again i know you hate to cry
Im trying to let you know the turmoil going on deep inside
I wish to bear my heart to you if only you could accept
Do with it whatever you wish you can be my guest

The tears that i want to cry are from a language only the heart understands
But my mind wont yield it disobeys my commands
My pride it gets in the way and it causes my heart to lie
Let me say again my love, sorry i couldn't cry

If you would give me one more chance i know i can overcome
The hold my mind has over me to let you know you are my one
I'll never let you hurt again i hope you can believe
I take away all your stress and give both our hearts reprieve