Play pretend

Its just hard to be happy.
I have to play pretend.
Put that smile on my face and laugh with you.
Its hard to be funny when I wanna cry with you.
Its hard to not think about that one special guy.
I want to run away.
Back to the place where sat the day away.
When laughter was easy,
Smiling was simple.
I wanna go back,
to when I wasn't in love.
To when we were just friends.
Now I feel empty.
Its so simple to be alone.
I want to be young when I was in bed.
if I had a nightmare my mommy would be there.
I wanna get a piggy-back ride from my dad.
More then anything I don't want to be sad.
Its hard to sleep when your face is stained with tears.
Always talking about the problems far away.
I wish I could do that.
Feel sorry for someone else.
Thats why I wont tell them
Why I play pretend.
So they'll never ask the question
is there anything I can do?'
Theres not a gosh darn thing anyone can do
To get me out of this world of Grey.
Maybe I'll be normal another day,
Just for today leave me alone.
I'll act the whole day through.
With that smile on my face
eyes are still sad.
pay no attention to the look in my eyes.
So if I smile with you
and I make it the day through
will you promise to play pretend with me?
Just act like you cant see.